Blessed

Sometimes life gets a bit over whelming. Now that I am a working girl it's been hard to find a balance. I yearn to spend days on end with Georgia just being with each other. Watching her grow. Teaching her things. Work itself is an adjustment. There is so much to learn. Things have to be done- no way around it. At first I joked I had brain damage. I simply could not retain information. Looking back I was in such a fog. Life was swirling around me and I was simply trying to grasp on.

Wake Up.

Wake up Georgia.

Cook Georgia Breakfast.

Make Georgia's Lunch.

Get Dressed.

Get Georgia Dressed.

Take Georgia to school.

Try to not cry on the way to work after she had another melt down dropping her off.

Go to Work.

Call School- check in on Georgia.

Leave Work.

Pick up Georgia.

Try to run errands.

Spend time with Georgia.

Find Dinner.

Feed Georgia Dinner.

Bathe Georgia.

Put Georgia in bed.

Pur Georgia back in bed.

Put Georgia back in bed.

Put Georgia back in bed.

Give up and let Georgia sleep with me.

Go to bed.

Repeat.

In free time try to figure out a plan for my life.

I know many people do this, but adjusting to this schedule while going through the turmoil of waking up to reality is hard. Very hard. I miss my daughter. It seems as though there is never enough time in the day to spend with her any more. I know I have grown though- I've realized the only person I can ever rely on completely is myself. I am becoming more and more comfortable with that thought every day.

More so I have realized I am so very blessed. God has surrounded me with love and protection. He blessed me with strength and knowledge. He has provided me with family and people who really do love and support me. He blessed my life with my daughter 3 1/2 years ago whom I am so very thankful for.

Sure I get frustrated and irritated and mad. But I have also been blessed. Just trying to keep that in my focus.