Blessed

Sometimes life gets a bit over whelming. Now that I am a working girl it's been hard to find a balance. I yearn to spend days on end with Georgia just being with each other. Watching her grow. Teaching her things. Work itself is an adjustment. There is so much to learn. Things have to be done- no way around it. At first I joked I had brain damage. I simply could not retain information. Looking back I was in such a fog. Life was swirling around me and I was simply trying to grasp on.

Wake Up.

Wake up Georgia.

Cook Georgia Breakfast.

Make Georgia's Lunch.

Get Dressed.

Get Georgia Dressed.

Take Georgia to school.

Try to not cry on the way to work after she had another melt down dropping her off.

Go to Work.

Call School- check in on Georgia.

Leave Work.

Pick up Georgia.

Try to run errands.

Spend time with Georgia.

Find Dinner.

Feed Georgia Dinner.

Bathe Georgia.

Put Georgia in bed.

Pur Georgia back in bed.

Put Georgia back in bed.

Put Georgia back in bed.

Give up and let Georgia sleep with me.

Go to bed.

Repeat.

In free time try to figure out a plan for my life.

I know many people do this, but adjusting to this schedule while going through the turmoil of waking up to reality is hard. Very hard. I miss my daughter. It seems as though there is never enough time in the day to spend with her any more. I know I have grown though- I've realized the only person I can ever rely on completely is myself. I am becoming more and more comfortable with that thought every day.

More so I have realized I am so very blessed. God has surrounded me with love and protection. He blessed me with strength and knowledge. He has provided me with family and people who really do love and support me. He blessed my life with my daughter 3 1/2 years ago whom I am so very thankful for.

Sure I get frustrated and irritated and mad. But I have also been blessed. Just trying to keep that in my focus.

Moving on and Life Changes

As many of you all ready know I am in the process of becoming a single mom. This has been a long process that is not over yet, but I feel to move on I have to acknowledge it. Seems a little weird to "announce" this over a blog, but I started this blog to update my friends and family on Georgia's life and I can't truly keep people updated while there is something hidden in the closet for a lack of a better term.

It has been an awakening experience and journey on finding out who truly supports my daughter and I. People I thought would stand behind me have fallen. Those I was not sure I could count on have continually stepped up to help me out. I have to say I am truly blessed. Not once have I felt scared or alone. I have a conviction I will make it through this and be a better and stronger person. You have to stand up for what is right.

Now that is over with here is a true account of the summer....

After the separation Georgia and I continued to live in the house for a few months. In August we moved out of the house and into an apartment. We have had a great time setting the place up and making it ours. I am so proud of Georgia. I knew this was going to be hard for her. Watching her go through this at times has literally broken my heart into a million pieces. Understand I would have never put my daughter through this if I thought there was any other way. She is a strong little girl. She is happy about our "new apartment" and loves to be there.



The year has flown by. I hope for and end to all of this soon. It isn't fun to have to deal with a continual fight day after day, but I guess that is what has to be done until things are settled. Maybe everything will be wrapped up by the end of the year and I will be able to leave all of this behind me in 2010. A fresh start for 2011.